Bhakti Theology Song 1371
1371 Live with me
I surrendered my life
In your hands
I requested you to
Live in it each day
Other than this
What else can I do
How I am going
To repay my debt to you
I never received the life
That I like very much
And I didn’t like
The life I received
Anyhow I am
Pushing each day somehow
Your grace is
The reason for this
There is nothing
For me to do anymore
If any changes come
There is no use in it
What I am going to do
Whichever might change
I least bother
About it
There is no place
To the question
Who is going to live
You or me
You lived so far [my life]
You will continue to live it
And you will
Complete my race
As I clearly
Understood this
I don’t have
Any kind of attachment
Once I put my life
In your hands
I never refuse to live
Wherever you put me
This wide
World belongs to you
Surely there will be a
Place for me in this
Taking your own decision of
Which is that place
Leading me accordingly
You live with me
Gurukulam, 15-4-2022, 10.40 p.m.
I never feel settled in life. Though I
travelled a lot and equally stayed for a long time not travelling [in Gurukulam
and Mathigiri] still I always have the feeling of being unsettled in life,
always living with a sense that soon I have to move from this place. In the
past I had some strength. But now in this old age with my responsibility to my
mother when again the question of moving comes it rattles a lot. My mother is
also feeling the same and each day she lives with the frustration that again
she has to move to some other place considering her need and our age. Now she
feels settled here in the ashram. I also
like this place. But now new challenges are coming, not allowing us to stay here
continuously. Each day she spends her time in a melancholic mood and I really
feel sorry for that. Her only option is going back to Mathigiri. I don’t know what
to do. My sister insists on coming to Chennai to stay near to her so that she
can take care of us. As I am tossed between my need and desire, unable to come to
any decision I left it to the Lord to decide what is best for both of me and my
mother. As I was deeply thinking about this issue I wrote this song
pouring down my heart to Him.
After writing this song again I sat silently and accepted His
will. As tears continue to flow I find some peace and rest in Him.
1371 என்னுடன் வாழ்ந்திடு
என்வழ்வை உன்னிடம்
நானுமே தந்தேன்
அனுதினம் அதில்நீ
வாழ்ந்திடச்
சொன்னேன்
இதுவன்றி நான்செய்ய
வேறேது உள்ளது
இதற்கு கைமாறு
நானென்ன செய்வது
விரும்பிய வாழ்வு
கிடைத்திட வில்லை
கிடைத்த வாழ்வை
விரும்பிட வில்லை
ஆயினும் நகத்துறேன்
அனுதின வாழ்வை
அதற்கும் காரணம்
நீகொண்ட கிருபை
இனிநான் செய்திட
ஒன்றுமே இல்லை
மாற்றம் வந்தாலும்
பயனுமே இல்லை
எது மாறினாலும்
நான்னென்ன செய்ய
அதுபற்றி கவலை
எனக்குமே இல்லை
வாழ்ப் போவது
நீயா நானா
என்கிற கேள்விக்கு
இடமுமே இல்லை
இதுவரை வாழ்ந்தாய்
இன்னுமும் வாழ்வாய்
எனது ஓட்டத்தை
முடித்தும் வைப்பாய்
இந்தத் தெளிவு
நான் கொண்டதாலே
எவ்விதப் பற்றும்
எனக்குமே இல்லை
எனது வாழ்வை
உன்னிடம் வைத்தபின்
நீவைக்கும் இடத்திலே
வாழ்ந்திட மறுக்கலை
பரந்து விரிந்த
உலகமும் உனது
அதிலொரு இடமும்
எனக்குமே உண்டு
எதுவென்ற முடிவை
நீயுமே எடுத்து
அதன்படி நடத்தி
என்னுடன் வாழ்ந்திடு
குருகுலம் 15-4-2022, இரவு 10.40
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