Bhakti Theology Song 1406

1406 There is a burden

 

I have nothing

To say more

Once this is

Acceptable to you

 

If you manage

To accomplish your will

There is nothing

For me to do against it

 

As everything is

Working only for my good

I have no question

To ask about it

 

Though I

Don’t like it

I don’t have any

Grievance in my heart about it

 

As you are there

To show me the way

I have no worry

About the life

 

Once you show

The correct way

There is no hesitation

To walk in it

 

Still there is a

Burden in my heart

It is torturing me

By burdening my heart

 

Though I understood that

I am carrying unnecessary burden

It refuses to

Go away from my heart

 

Thoughts about future

Anxiety about future

The everyday burden

That I am carrying

 

Added to that as

Sickness have joined

The trouble that it gives

And added more expenses

 

Like this there are

So many things to tell

But where is the limit

Even if I began to tell

 

On the one side

Though faith leads me

On the other side

My unbelief also pulling me down

 

But my heart

Is experiencing that

You are upholding me

Not to falling down

 

This burden now

Become a great burden

Unless I unload this

It won’t go away

 

Why I cannot

Do that alone

That alone now

Became my question

 

Is there your

Will in this

And did your consent

Also join with it

 

Whatever might be

Your company is enough

Only your will alone

Should be accomplished

 

Gurukulam, 15-7-2022, 11.15 p.m.

 

Some kind of uneasiness prevails in my mind. Some unrecognizable burden is pulling me down.  But I don’t know what it is. Of course I know that the need of my mother and my present health might force me to move away from the ashram for some time. But I am not mentally prepared for that and always think and rethink the alternative plans which will allow me to stay with my mother here. But nothing seems to be working as I plan.  Maybe this unwanted anxiety is pulling me down.  However in this I have to work with God to unload this burden.

 

1406 பாரம் உள்ளது

 

உனக்கிது சம்மதம்

என்றான பின்னே

நான்சொல்ல இதிலே

ஒன்றுமே இல்லை

 

உன்எண்ணம் தன்னை

நிறைவேற்றிக் கொண்டால்

அதைமீறி நான்செய்ய

ஒன்றுமே இல்லை

 

எனது நன்மைக்காய்

எல்லாம் நடக்கையில்

அதுபற்றி நான்கேட்க

கேள்வியும் இல்லை

 

எனக்கதில் விருப்பம்

இல்லாது போனாலும்

அதற்காக குறையுமே

மனதிலே இல்லை

 

வழிகாட்ட என்னோடு

நீயும் இருக்கையில்

வாழ்க்கைப் பற்றிய

கவலையும் இல்லை

 

சரியான பாதைநீ

காட்டும் போது

அதிலே நடந்திட

தயக்கமும் இல்லை

 

ஆனாலும் மனதிலே

ஒருபாரம் உள்ளது

அதுவுமே அழுத்தியே

என்னையும் வதைக்குது

 

வீணான பாரத்தை

சுமக்கிறேன் என்பதை

நானுமேப் புரிந்தாலும்

அதுநீங்க மறுக்குது

 

எதிர்மறை எண்ணங்கள்

எதிர்கால கவலைகள்

இப்போது சுமக்கின்ற

அன்றாடப் பொறுப்புகள்

 

அத்தோடு நோய்நொடி

வந்துமே சேர்ந்திட

அதுதரும் தொல்லைகள்

அத்தோடு செலவுகள்

 

இதுபோல இன்னமும்

சொல்லிட பலஉண்டு

எத்தனைச் சொன்னாலும்

முடிவிங்கு ஏதுண்டு

 

நம்பிக்கை ஒருபுறம்

என்னையும் நடத்த

அவநம்பிக்கை மறுபுறம்

என்னையும் வீழ்த்துது

 

தடுமாறி நானும்

கீழே வீழாமல்

தாங்கி நீபிடிப்பதை

என்மனம் உணருது

 

இப்பரம் இப்போது

பெரும்பாரம் ஆனது

நானுமே இறக்காமல்

அதுவுமே போகாது

 

அதைமட்டும் என்னாலே

ஏன்செய்ய முடியலை

அதுவே இப்போது

என்கேள்வி ஆனது

 

உன்சித்தம் ஏதேனும்

இதிலுமே இருக்கா

சம்மதம் உனதுமே

சேர்ந்து கொண்டதா

 

எதுவான போதும்

உன்துணை போதும்

உன்எண்ணம் மட்டும்

நிறைவேற வேண்டும்

 

குருகுலம், 15-7-2022, இரவு, 11.15

 Bhakti Theology Song 1405

1405 Fullness

 

One should understand that

Becoming complete

Is almost

Impossible for one

 

Also one should

Understand that

Becoming complete

Is also an impossible task

 

To live safely

A small cage

Is enough

For the bird

 

To soar high

By spreading its wing

It also needs

A wide sky

 

Thinking that

What one has achieve is enough

And try to see

Fullness only in it

 

It will become

Like a

Stagnant

water

 

If the river

Roaring and flowing

If finally

Mingles with see

 

Though it might

Loss its nature

The river will

Find fullness there

 

Leaving that

If it remains stagnant

One day

It will also dry up

 

We should strive

Each day

To achieve that

Fullness in us

 

Not allowing

Any stagnant to come

We should

Continue to run

 

In this life

That God has given

Forgetting to

Do that

 

If we cling

To this life

Thinking that

This is enough

 

Like the bird

That has lost

The wider world

To fly

 

Living like a

Bird in a cage

We also should

Perish in a cage

 

Gurukulam, 15-07-2022, 5.45 p.m.

After reading the following thoughts by Tagore I wrote this poem:

 

      That we cannot absolutely possess the infinite being is not a mere intellectual proposition. It has to be experienced, and this experience is bliss.  The bird, while taking its flight in the sky, experiences bird, while taking its flight in the sky, experiences at every beat of its wings that the sky is boundless, that its wings can never carry it beyond.  Therein lies its joy.  In the cage the sky is limited; it may be quite enough for all the purposes of the bird’s life, only it is not more than is necessary. The bird cannot rejoice within the limits of the necessary. It must feel that what it has is immeasurably more than it ever can want or comprehend, and then only can it be glad.

      Thus our soul must soar in the infinite, and she must feel every moment that in the sense of not being able to come to the end of her attainment is her supreme joy, her final freedom. (p.152)

...

      Man is not complete; he is yet to be. In what he is he is small, and if we could conceive him stopping there for eternity we should have an idea of the most awful hell that man can imagine. In his to be he is infinite, there is his heaven, his deliverance. His is occupied every moment with what it can get and have done with; his to be is hungering for something which is more than can be got, which he never can lose because he never has possessed.— Rabindranath Tagore, Sadhana: The Realisation of Life, Macmillan And Co;, London, Indian edition, 1930, pp. 152-153